Recently, I've read that, in part, this is how we are supposed to feel. That we should just get used to these feelings. No one less than a cell biologist said it (a cell biologist!) in relation to his getting a Ph.D (presumably in cell sciencey type stuff):
Science makes me feel stupid... It's just that I've gotten used to it. So used to it, in fact, that I actively seek out new opportunities to feel stupid. I wouldn't know what to do without that feeling. I even think it's supposed to be this way.I mean, I think - I hope - that I share some of the author's enthusiasm and optimism about the more liberating aspects of stupidity he mentions in the rest of the article (read it!). Otherwise, I'd just give up right now. But, this stupidity I'm feeling right now isn't the kind of awe-inspiring and humbling 'Ah, man! Look at all these problems I can solve and that are just waiting to be solved by my motherfucking ignorant ass! Yay, for there always being problems!' feelings our cell biologist is talking about.
This stupidity I feel has me feeling unproductive. And, I feel guilty because my feeling stupid and unproductive has me feeling like I should be doing more work no matter how much I've actually already done. All. The. Time.
I'm just hoping this guilt isn't something I have to get used to for as long as I stay in this business. That'd be shitty.