At this point in my life, I don't really want kids, but someday I do. When I think about it--and these thoughts are purely in the abstract--I think how could I ever afford something like that? and, where would I ever find the time for something like that? Something would have to give in a serious way.
Now, I know that there are plenty of people with less money than me who have kids. And I know there are plenty of people a lot busier than me who have kids. But I guess I don't get how they do it.
This is one of the things I really can't stand about the VAP situation. I feel unsettled. I don't know where I'll be living a year from right now, or how much money I'll be making, or whether I'll have to move across the country, or what Mrs. Zero's job situation will look like. I can't see how a kid would fit into this kind of life, so I feel like there's this door that's closed to me. Now, I'm not desperate to walk through this door; if it were open, I might wait a few more years before taking that step. But it would be nice if I could feel that it were open.